I just found out I am pregnant. I have known since conception that I more than likely was after our birth control failed the day before ovulation. Needless to say I took pregnancy tests daily (knowing they may be negative but I was way too impatient) and tonight it came up with a very faint, but very noticeable, double line. I assume that since I know I conceived on September 25 my edd would be June 17. I just hope the doctor will agree because I don't remember my last period.

Now, I am terrified. This will be my 3rd.. At 23. I won't be able to work once the baby comes. There is no way we can afford daycare for an infant, a toddler and a preschooler. Josh seems calm. too calm. The calmness is terrifying to me.

Holy shit.

I have decided to finally begin using my journal again. For so long, my journal kept me sane.. Okay, semi-sane,  and I think it is about time I begin doing it again to try to get some of that sanity back.

So, who am I? Well, my name is Sarah. I am married to an amazing man. I have two gorgeous children. I work for Liberty Mutual insurance and I am currently buying my first home. I post pictures a lot. I bitch about work more than enough. I brag about my kids daily, no hourly. And I will brag about my husband as well.



This is Nathan. He is 4 years old and quite possibly the most amazing little guy ever. He is smart, he is funny and he amazes me daily. It is hard for me to put into words how absolutely perfect he is. He is such a good kid and very in touch with his feelings. He understands more than grown ups give him credit for and he makes me so proud. He loves dinosaurs, cars, trains and cartoons. He has the most vivid imagination.



This is Emma. She is 18 months and a complete mini-me. She is hilarious and her personality is insane. She can make me laugh for hours and hours. She is bright and such a good child. She makes being a mother easy and I would not trade it for the world. She is very motherly. She carried her baby dolls around and takes care of them. It is very sweet. She is obsessed with blankets and books.



This is me and my husband. If soul mates truly exist, then that is what we are. I have never had to doubt if we were made for each other. Everyday I am more and more in love with him. I still get giddy and tingly when I look at him and I know that we are going to be together forever. I cannot wait to grow old with him.